I have been very blessed to have a busy wedding season this year. I have loved every minute of it! I had a small lull in my scheduled weddings and used that time to meet with several doctors throughout northern Utah. The majority of my appointments have been with a fertility specialist in Layton. I feel slightly like a push pin after going on a medical witch hunt with a half dozen specialists and half a dozen adoption agencies out in the wings.
After several years of trying to expand our little family, I feel a little discouraged. There have been times I felt hurt, angry, devastated and confused. I have spent many a time crying to Craig wondering why we can’t have something we really want. Not just any something, but something really important to us. It’s been a roller coaster working with doctors, insurance companies and really wondering if everything will work out. I don’t have all the answers. Luckily, this has been a trial that has really brought Craig and I closer. This has also been a trial that has brought me closer to my faith. For these two things, I am really grateful.
Now let the witch hunt continue… 
I recently purchased a film camera. I love doing my personal work on film and playing around. I love the pastel colors and how it makes me slow down and relax. 
I know this sounds cliche but it will work out the way it is supposed to. I have watched may friends and family including you go through similar challenges and it always works out in God’s time and way. I know that you will get the child(ren) that is supposed to be apart of your family, and when that time comes it will be one lucky child to have you and Craig as parents. Continue to keep the faith and we will continue to include you in our prayers. We love you two.
Fingers crossed that it is soon.
Oh Belinda. My older sister went through so much like what you are going through and it was really hard to see how difficult it was for her. I don’t know if you are in the mood to hear the phrase “everything will work out”, but it really, really will. Life is so interesting and I am thinking of you and hope that you are happy. Miss you!!!
Just *hugs*.